I love the way a good, hot bath feels. There is just nothing like it. Soothing, relaxing, refreshing. Ahhhh.

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I had a very freaky dream this evening when I took a little nap. I was warned by someone, when I was getting into my car, to get down, fast, because someone was planning on shooting me in the neck. Freaky.

Other previous parts of the dream included:
*Me going into a few bars and asking if I could buy a couple of bottles of beer to take out of the restaurant with me. No one was cooperating with me.

*Being in a little club or someplace with a small stage - it was very black inside - and apparantly having a gig to play my guitar.

*Using a public restroom with no door to the individual toilet. *shock*

*Seeing people that I used to go to school with, that I haven't had contact with in a very long time.

*Something about bubby and his keyboards...and carrying them and plugging them in and playing a Journey song

*Driving and the traffic being very odd and dream-like. Almost Dr. Seuss-ish.

I think thats enough for now. but it was very weird.

so i took this test (thanks to Danielle) and here were my results:

Your temperament is Artisan

Artisans are the temperament with a natural ability to excel in any of the arts, not only the fine arts such as painting and sculpting, or the performing arts such as music, theater, and dance, but also the athletic, military, political, mechanical, and industrial arts, as well as the "art of the deal" in business.

Artisans are most at home in the real world of solid objects that can be made and manipulated, and of real-life events that can be experienced in the here and now. Artisans have exceptionally keen senses, and love working with their hands. They seem right at home with tools, instruments, and vehicles of all kinds, and their actions are usually aimed at getting them where they want to go, and as quickly as possible. Thus Artisans will strike off boldly down roads that others might consider risky or impossible, doing whatever it takes, rules or no rules, to accomplish their goals. This devil-may-care attitude also gives the Artisans a winning way with people, and they are often irresistibly charming with family, friends, and co-workers.

Artisans want to be where the action is; they seek out adventure and show a constant hunger for pleasure and stimulation. They believe that variety is the spice of life, and that doing things that aren't fun or exciting is a waste of time. Artisans are impulsive, adaptable, competitive, and believe the next throw of the dice will be the lucky one. They can also be generous to a fault, always ready to share with their friends from the bounty of life. Above all, Artisans need to be free to do what they wish, when they wish. They resist being tied or bound or confined or obligated; they would rather not wait, or save, or store, or live for tomorrow. In the Artisan view, today must be enjoyed, for tomorrow never comes.

Artisans make up between 15 to 20 percent of the population, which is good, because they create much of the beauty, grace, fun, and excitement the rest of us enjoy in life.

I dont' think its true about acting on impulse though. It ususally takes me a rediculously long time to decide something. I do like sponteneity, but not in the decision-making department.

what does a silly little test know, anyway? ;)

To get to the point, without details, I had a dream last night that I was like two hours late to work.

it was TERRIBLE.

i felt incredible anxiety in my dream. i was mortified and kept apoligizing and just felt terrible.

I really hate messing things up (in real life). It really gets under my skin and has the ability to bother me for a long time. I don't really like this about myself.

Also, I'm realizing that sometimes I get incredibly anxious about talking to people about serious matters. I dont mean about life or love or whatever. I mean...if anything is even remotely confrontational, I FREAK out. My heart starts POUNDING, I feel like I'm going to vomit, I can't breathe, and I am just so nervous I feel like I need a Valum. Its like I don't know what to do or how to handle those situations. I also don't like this about myself.

oh well.

just sharing.

I also think I wear my heart on my sleeve. I feel the need to explain this. I don't mean that I don't keep my heart guarded. Because I think I do guard my heart. What I mean is this: What you see is what you get. If I feel like being absolutely retarded, I'm going to be - and I don't give a rip if you think its absolutely rediculous. If I feel like laughing "inappropriately" loud in a public place, I'm going to laugh. If someone doesn't like it, too bad. If I get excited about the simpliest thing - like the first time I rode in a cab, I was freaking out-excited - Im not going to hide it. If I dont' like something, you're going to know that I don't like it. There is no sugarcoating. There is no beating around the bush. I call a spade a spade. If it offends you (within reason), then you should grow some thicker skin and not be such a pansy. If someone wants to know something "personal" about me, about life or how I feel about things or about how much money I have, I will tell you. Whats the point in hiding that stuff?

peace out