Sweet. Fancy. Moses.

Will someone please buy me a huge tarp so I can do this?!?! PLEASE.


LETS GO.

Thanks to Dan, I got this from his xanga. I love these things (which I say every time I fill one out.) But its true. so here it goes...

Last Kiss: almost 7 in the morning saturday morning. at the airport.

Last movie seen: Hm. that would be the "new" parent trap with lindsay lohan...it was on tv last night. heh.

Last cuss word uttered: hm. good question. does "crap" count?" if not, i remember saying "ass" at dinner friday night with andrew. lol.

Last beverage drank: ah. van. frap. this afternoon. yum.

Last food consumed: ziti. this morning.

Last phone call: marie. my cousin. this afternoon.

Last tv show watched: part of fear factor, last night. GROSS.

Last shoes worn: the ones i have on now. Borns...brown slip on type shoes.

Last cd played: My mix cd in my car.

Last item bought: hm. groceries yesterday.

Last annoyance: wow. actually just now...Anna, the youngest I nanny for keeps asking me every 3 seconds if the picture shes working on is good. its all good, though.

Last disappointment: hm. thinking, thinking, thinking. being sad this morning, again thinking about Andrew not being here anymore.

Last thing written: meaning? i don't kow what this means. I'll go with the last thing i wrote down on paper. A note to Barbara and David (the kids' parents I nanny for) just a bit ago.

Last words spoken: "Hm." (to myself, just a sec. ago."

Last sleep: i didn't have to work this morning so i slept in 'til just past 10 am this morning.

Last ice cream eaten: not a huge ice cream person. i don't know. maybe a mcflurry a couple weeks ago?

Last time amused: probably watching Anna and the kiddoes do gymnastics today. so freaking cute.

Last time hugged: hmmm. probably this morning by mom.

Last chair sat in: the one i'm in now at the wolock's computer.

Last lipstick used: yesterday. it was actually lip gloss. deep, bright pink.

Last webpage visited: this one. before that, dan w's xanga.

PERSON WHO LAST

Called you: Marie. this afternoon

Slept in your bed: besides myself? andrew. fri night into saturday

Saw you cry: Andrew or someone at the airport as I was walking away.

Made you cry: haha...Andrew. in a sense.

Last person you yelled at: I think i semi yelled at mom this morning. because she was REALLLLLLLLY confused and it was driving me nuts that she couldn't listen to what I was telling her.


FRiENDSHiP/LOVE

Do you believe in love at first sight: um no. if you know the true def. of love, then you know thats not even possible.

Do you want children someday: absolutely

Most important thing to you in a friendship: Love. (i'm agreein with dan on this one.)


OTHER iNFO

Things you dislike about yourself: oh wow. how long do we have. ...that i do the things that I hate that I do. that i'm not brave enough. or patient enough or peaceful enough or loving enough. or that i procrastonate. um. thats a start.

Worst feeling in the world: hm. i imagine it would be separation from God.

WiTH THE OPPOSiTE Sex

What do you notice first: i dunno...probably how a person carries themself.

Last person you slow danced with: haha. honestly i don't know.

Makes you laugh the most: hm. probably my friend Zach.

Makes you smile: Andrew

Can make you feel better no matter what: Andrew


DO YOU EVER

Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no

Save AIM conversations: yeah. sometimes. not ususally.

Save Emails: i'm more of the "i don't take time to delete them" kind of person

Wear cologne: haha...i'm a girl...its perfume or body spray

HAVE YOU

Fallen for your best friend? yeah

Made out with JUST a friend? no

Been rejected: um. yes.

Been in love?: yeah

Cheated on someone?: no

Been cheated on?: hm. not that i'm aware of. lol

Been kissed?: Yes

Done something you regret?: certainly


DO YOU

Color your hair?: yes. but i don't keep up with it. haha. i'm not a "regular" colorer.

Have piercings?: yeah

Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU

Smoke?: no

Schizophrenic?:no

Obsessive compulsive? no

Panic: yes, kind of sometimes
Depressed?: def. not clinically. i have fleeting moments.

FAVORiTE

Food: wow. there are too many. homemade mashed potatoes.

Song at the moment: either "make you feel my love" derek and sandra style or "thy mercy" caedmons call style.

Drinks: water, coke, boulevard

Clothes: navy hoodie. jeans.

Favorite movie(s): the money pit

Holiday: Easter

Disney Movie: hm. maybe the little mirmaid.

Scent: haha. andrewness

Nickname: honey (haha)

hey y'all i just made some ziti - come on over and get some. :)

ah. this past week was ...interesting. Lets see. Andrew was here for a week. mom got her left boob chopped off. Yes, indeed.

It was really emotionally tolling, with mom's surgery and all. I'm so glad the cancer is gone now, though. After she woke up from surgery, bubby and I went back into recovery to see her and look at the scar and all of that, and when we were done, bubby asked me if I was alright cause he said I was as white as a sheet and looked like I was going to pass out amd I was like "No," and then just busted out into tears. I don't even know why. It was just really overwhelming. The whole process was over. She made it through surgery (although I never doubted that she would), and it was really weird seeing a piece of her just gone. Its like seeing someone without a limb for the first time, if you're used to seeing them with it your whole life. That, and I have ZERO tolerance for anything gory or medical, really, so seeing the staples and the drain with the blood in it was enough to send me into the bathroom. Ah. but he pulled through and did the big brother thing and just hugged me and talked while I cried and then regained my composure before going back into the waiting room. hehe.

And on that note, I will say publically that it was wonderful having Andrew here for that very reason. - That he was able to be quite the strength for me. I mean, God is my ultimate strength. But I know God provides help to us through various means, and I know it was wonderful to have Andrew here and next to me the whole time. He is truly a support system to me and that was displayed perfectly this week. Yes...he is a good man. He was there when we had to get up at the crack of dawn (actually, earlier), to take mom into surgery, and was there every moment with myself and my family in the waiting room and throughout the whole process. Ah.

I hate seeing him go. I really do. It gets harder on me every time i have to say goodbye to him. I'm just a basket case every time. hate it. but, he reminded me of something i "already knew" (which he so often does, and it is a wonderful thing)...he said (very tenderly) "Dena, it is not God's will for us to be with eachother right now." It is a mystery to me the combanation and almost paradox of human pain and suffering and grieving over a loss in the context of God's will, which is perfect and the most wonderful, beautiful thing, ever.

hm. Happy resurrection day. I saw Covenant Baptism today, which I had never seen. Very cool.

I like to cook. I want to learn more and more. Some things I am not so great at...but I am learning.