i've been getting to bed earlier than i'm used to this week. so thats been really nice. which is still not early, but early for me.

sometimes when i think about it, i wonder what im even doing here on earth. (i know the basic answer, too) but what i'm getting at is, it would be so much better and more simple to just be in heaven with God. get to the point, already. (don't worry, i'm not suicidal or anything, just random God-thoughts.)

i've started taking notes while i'm reading/studying the Bible. been doin this for a few weeks or so. it helps immensely. but the thing is, i think, personally, its so much easier to read and comprehend and to agree with what I read, but putting it into practice is totally hard most of the time.

just a few thoughts for the night.

goodnite.

so i seem to be on the survey kick again. heres another

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Dena
2. Deans
3. Honey

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Worth Ethic
2. Genuineness
3. Musicality

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. That i'm not more proactive about certain things/procrastionator
2. Impatient about certain things
3. Bad memory with certain things

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. the mysteries of God
2. My mom's thought processes
3. Calculous

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. Vagueness/Incompletion/Starting something and not finishing it
2. Being inturrupted
3. Pity parties/people putting themselves down/fishing for compliments or saying things that are clearly untrue

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. um...the first one...is a personal one
2. Fire
3. The dark

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Sleep
2. Music
3. Laughter

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS:
1. Derek Webb
2. Damien Rice
3. Patty Griffin

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. Mary - Patty Griffin
2. No more tears - acoustic with Derek and Sandra
3. Masquerade - Cademon's Call

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
1. have sex :D
2. go a day without doing something klutzy
3. several full-out pushups *ooops*

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. singing or playing an instrument
2. surfing the web
3. thinking

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. to understand stuff
2. to be more giving and caring
3. a nap

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Domestic Engineer
2. Housewife
3. Mother
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. somwhere in the moutains with a lake and a rope swing
2. cali to surf
3. england to see anna

THREE THINGS YOU WANT BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. hm. to have a family of my own
2. To be a good woman
3. a video camera?

Coolness Factor of the Day:
Zach Buescher, aka, my jamming buddy decided to do a little recording of himself jammin out in his room. Sent me the clips tonite (and still is, actually, while i'm typing this). A little Shane n Shane - complete with beefy double strumming action (sweet action)...Those who trust...freaking Masquerade and so on.

Ladies and Gentlemen...it has been brought.

and Zach was the one who has brought it.



(now i, even more, can't wait to rock out again with him)

From the webboard:....

Name: Dena
Age: 21
Hometown: Overland Park, ks
Where you live now: same
College? nope. had some and hated it.
Marital Status: not married

What time is it: 1 50 PM central time

THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR (things you can't live without)

Something important on your desk: my checking account number so i can access all of that online
When you sleep you wear: wouldn't you like to know

If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: a sweet video camera

Something you don't have a lot of: sleep

If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be: i'm going to pretend each grouping of items only counts as one
1) all our home videos
2) photos
3) cpu

MORALS

If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: ?? thats an odd one

A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally: uh...i can't think of a particular instance right now. but i know, of course, i've done this.

A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: a "friendationship" ago

One person you have killed in your thoughts: i have no idea

FRIENDS:

honesty, integrity, sense of humor

Who makes you laugh most often: um...besides myself? kate, probably

A friend who you can tell anything: Andrew

A friend you can got to for advice: Andrew

The best piece of advice you had been given: uh. i don't know. i'm sure its something Biblical, tho.

Two closest friends: Andrew and Katie Jo

The friend who uses most of your energy: Malory

EGO

Your 3 best qualities: uh. strongwilledness, being passionate, being loving?

Your 3 worst qualities : strongwilledness, being passionate, not being loving enough

Describe your Ideal self: being a true woman of God

A compliment that makes you blush: that i am the most beautiful woman

You are embarassed when: i don't know. i'm not easily embarassed

The greatest physical pain you ever endured: hm. thats a good question. maybe when i tore all the ligaments in my ankle

The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: surviving the break-up of my life

Moment you are most ashamed of: don't want to talk about that one, publically, thanks

Your best physical feature: i have no idea. eyes, maybe?

Who/What makes you happy: hm. realizing God can fufill me completely.

Who/what makes you sad: when i want to fix something and I can't. people who are unneccessarily stubborn. rudeness. someone being a jackass for the sake of being a jackass. vagueness.

EMOTIONS

Emotion you hide most: Disappointment

The emotion you tend to experience most: what is the emotion for laughter? elation? i have no idea.

The emotion you are feeling most lately: melencholy

You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: hm. dunno.

When you are angry you need: well. besides God (hehe), to be on my own. sleep, often times.

When you are sentimental you need: good music and to look at pictures or home vids.

When you are in love you need: to be held

MEMORIES

One of your most peaceful memories: getting a massage

One of your most tragic memories: being the only one with my mom when she got the phone call informing her my brother had hung himself

One of your angriest memories: hm. i don' tknow

A memory that makes you laugh: "bumper chairs" with my teenage self and other girls in a friend's kitchen...getting knocked over the back of the chair. laughing so hard i nearly peed.

A memory that makes you happy: several years of thanksgivings on the plaza

LOVE

Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: be genuine and open hearted

Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: be rude/insensitive/ungrateful

Two things appealing about people: helpfulness and servant's heart

A personality trait you find appealing: sensitivity

Your secret passion: ...hm...i dunno if this would actually be the right category for this. but i think it would rock the casbah to get to be on a stage and sing and play one song.

What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: um...hm. comfort in the knowledge i am being accepted even with all my flaws exposed

AND FINALLY

If you had more time alone you would: read more, do art projects....create things, especially messing wtih photographs

If you had more patience you would: get better at guitar

If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: be toned (not saying i'm fat, just to be toned)

If you had no committments what would you be doing: hm. taking care of a family...which i guess is a committment. but thats what i want to do, so eh?

If you could have one super power what would it be: to always overcome temptation and not to sin

If you could start all over.... hm...i have no idea

Do you ever find yourself randomly browsing someone's online journal who you don't even know? Just because its a link from someone you know, etc? Yeah. I do. And so i yoinked this from someone's xanga that I don't know.

Thirteen random things you like:
1) Music

2) Coffee

3). Laughing. Correction: cracking up for any reason

4) Naps/Sleeping in

5) Sunsets

6) Down/feather pillows, beds, and blankets

7) Staying up way too late

8) a man in a suit, tie and suspenders

9) chivalry and romance of any sort

10) fireplaces

11) sunsets

12) snuggling

13) ice water

Twelve of your favorite movies: (in no special order)
1) That Touch of Mink
2) Arsenic and Old Lace
3) Bringing Up Baby
4) The Money Pit
5) 13 Going on 30
6) National Treasure
7) The Notebook
8) Serendipity
9) The Pajama Game
10) any of the LOTR movies
11) Meet the Parents
12) Son In Law

Eleven good bands/artists (no particular order):
1) Derek Webb
2) Sandra McCracken
3) Damien Rice
4) Eastmountainsouth
5) Sade
6) The Beach Boys
7) Travis
8) Patty Griffin
9) Matt Wertz
10) scratch track
11) hanson


Ten places you love to go to:
1) My bed
2) a coffee shop
3) by the fireplace
4) Deerfield IL (hehe)
5) Aledo IL (hehe)
6) the plaza
7) a concert hall
8) the bathtub
9) on my floor with my guitar
10) nowhere at all. sometimes i just like to be.


Nine favorite things to do with your friends:
1) Laugh about retarded stuff
2) Talk about God
3) Jam...rock out, man.
4) cook
5) make up an art project
6) play a game or cards
7) have a beer or foofee drink together
8) Listen
9) road trip!


Eight people you admire:
1) JC (hehe)
2) Andrew
3) Sean/Cristina...ok...so thats two...oh well.
4) Dee Dub
5) All the Reformers...past and present
6) Paul (of the NT)...he rocked.
7) Judy Chandler (church)
8) Anita Nish (church)

Seven things you are passionate about:
1) coloring within the lines
2) really loving
3) The Bible/Truth and it being set free (although not nearly as much as I should be)
4) Music
5) The thought of someday being a great wife and mom...so that starts with figuring out how to be a godly woman. (lots of work there to go, lemme tell ya)
6) Telling it like it is
7) laughing

Six things you do everyday:
1) sleep
2) Eat
3) Pray sporadically
4) Sing/listen to music
5) think a lot about things
6) read my bible (unless i don't)

Five shows you like to watch:
I'm just going to leave this blank cause as most of you know, i generally can't handle a lot of TV watching.

Four items you want for Christmas:
1) Cash
2) a Vid camera
3) snow
4) a train ride

Three scents you could not live without:
1) Andrewness
2) Cooking food
3) Coffee


Two things you want to do before 2005:
1) uh...? exercise more?
2) grow in my (the Lord's) faith

One thing on your mind right now:
1) I want to pay some bills to get it out of the way