a few things:

sometimes i have random dreams about people that i no longer in touch with. sometimes these dreams freak me out, or scare me, or make me feel sad. but mostly they make me think about that person and then i start wondering how they're doing. and i mostly kind of miss them. or maybe just miss something about them or something about my life that i felt when they were around. i had one of these dreams last night. but it was confusing, i think, more than anything. dreams don't create real feelings. i think they make me think i'm feeling something that i don't actually feel. which probably is completely incoherent. but it makes perfect sense to me.

i do not enjoy mornings. at all. but mostly the waking up part. AT. ALL. (this is not new information, btw.)

I read the DiVinci Code from friday night to yesterday afternoon, and it was fan-tas-tic. imo. in a purely fictional sort of way, of course. but it was riveting. luhvd. it. i couldn't put the dang thing down. it reminded me how much i miss "free reading." when i read a novel or whathaveyou, i feel guilty that i'm either a)not doing something productive (its true.) or b)feel like i should be spending my time reading something in the "Christian" realm that will make me learn more about God...or something of that nature. so i hardly EVER read anything thats not Christian-related, anymore. hardly ever. seriously. and while that is very important to me, and I enjoy learning about my faith and about God, it is not the same kind of "entertainment." at all. I got about half-way though Crime and Punishment last summer and was loving it, but then never finished it because I didn't take the time to just sit still and do nothing important.