you know...boys and girls...together...they are a funny thing. all kinds of theories and thoughts on that.

some thoughts lately are spawned by my own interaction with the manlier sex...and some of my thougts are being spawned by tales of woe from my friends...or from watching my friends interact...and some of them are just plain wacked out...and i suppose a combonation of "what if"s....i do the "what if" thing a lot....this is because i over analyze everything

when does hanging out/talking with a friend of the opposite sex start to cross the line into friendationship status? (see the plug for Ellie's blog below for the definition of that word) And...if you're not wanting it to go into friendationship status, do you have to not hang out/talk so much? or if you are wanting it to go into friendationship status...do you keep hanging out/talking? or do you stop...cause you're afraid the other person won't feel the same way? or....what if the other person thinks you are jonesin for them when you really just enjoy thier company but don't like them like THAT? I'll tell you what...i've said this many a time...but...everytime a guy friend of mine has somehow either told me/let it slip that he was diggin me...like THAT, i have been hugely flattered....so it doesn't have to get weird...i've never been weird about that...but what if the other person gets weirded out if they tell you they like you, but you let them know you aren't into them like that? that would suck.

what if you're into someone...and they have no earthly idea....and you're a woman....and you can't tell him...because you are a woman...who needs to be the PURSUED one...NOT the purser.....but you just want to hit him over the head and tell him you're into him? but you can't do that...cause you're a woman....plus...you just would never do something so bold. and you're too scared....plus it doesn't matter if you like him anyway unless he liked you in the first place...cause you don't want your liking him to be the incentive for him suddenly liking you........so....you tell one of his friends...but his friend is not allowed to tell him....because he has been threatned with his life if he spills the beans...and then you have no idea why you told his friend....cause its not like that does any good...other than to hear that friend say "I want to get you and such and such together cause you would be great for eachother"...and then you just have to get all swoony cause i mean...one of his best buds is telling you this, for crying out loud, which makes you think that hey, hes the best friend, he should know, right? which gives you this weird hope thing....which really is no kind of assured hope at all, because the friend thinking you two should get together does not mean the said crush would ever agree.....that sucks...cause...the guy you like still has no clue you like him...at all..........or maybe he does...but is ignoring it...cause he doesn't like you like that...and he doesn't want to deal with it...so he just pretends not to know......which is a scary thought....

what if you're the last person to realize that you have a crush on someone? like...what if everyone around you realizes you are so diggin someone...but you are always like "no i do not....we're totally just friends"...because you just have never entertained the thought of anything other than a friendship .....and then it ends up that you HAVE been jonesin for this person, all along...but didn't even realize it........or....what if people are always telling you that you and suchandsuch NEED to hook up...but you keep saying "no we don't"...and you actually mean "no we don't"...because you truely aren't feelin' it.....but they won't listen to you and just say that you're in denial.

and...what if you think, that under normal circumstances, you could possibly be diggin a person...but at this point in your life, you can't let yourself dig this person...because at the same time, there is a different person who you dig HUGELY....so since you've seen the creme brulet', you can't go with the usually-popular jello (which you would normally at least consider)...cause you see this creme brulet' that you are going to wait around on....cause you see something in that person that is so special...and you think that maybe you could share that with that person...

speaking of waiting....if you're planning on waiting around on someone to see if they ever give any REAL indication (IE: tatoo it on my forehead, please...i'm kind of dense) of liking you like THAT...how long is long enough to wait around before you should move on? and...what if you like someone...but they are all wrong for you? what if you could do so much better? and not neccessarily "better" as in...."moving up in the world of dating"...i mean "better" like...better fitting for yourself.........so...everyone around you knows you could do so much better...but....you won't listen to them...because "love (so is lust, attraction, crushes, etc at times) is blind"...but you just keep hanging on to this person...cause getting over a person and letting go of that person are two TOTALLY different things...for real. so...what if your thinking is clouded cause you are still in the mindset of another person...when someone who you could be great with is right in front of you and you just can't see that? hm... it pisses me off when i see my friends with people who do not deserve them, for some reason or another...(like i said, not necc. meaning that other person is "bad")

what if all the odds are against a relationship? like...its not at all practical...but you know it would be great cause you two would be great together? so...do you say "thats not practical, who cares if we would be great for eachother" and move on and not even consider getting together? or do you say..."i don't care if i have to row myself to outer mongolia and wait 20 years, I'm holding out for this person because WE would be too good to pass up"?

hm...i am a weirdo...who needs sleep.