So.

Tomorrow..my best friend......in the whole world...., Anna...the one that got married...is leaving her home a mile away from me..and moving to North Dakota....

and......i will see her briefly while they are packing up the uhaul.....

and.......i really don't want to think about that right now

cause that is tomorrow (technically today, but i still get a night's sleep)....and i don't want to have to deal with that until it happens.......cause you know what? I don't want her to leave.....yeah.......

north dakota....she will be there for at least three years........of course she'll be home to visit at times....hollidays.....and such.....but who knows when and what holidays she'll be home for?? i don't know

and you know what?

i'm going to cry

a lot

as in

we're talking

dena is going to bawl her eyes out

as in.......

dena is going to need to sit her self down on anna's drive way and just weep for a while hugging anna

and i hate that

cause i am not ready to say goodbye to her yet

and i have a really hard time of letting people go

and i don't want to have to do that

but i have to

so.....tomorrow is going to be a very weepy sad day.....and we're all (her family and i) going to be standing around her driveway.......holding on to eachother....bawling our eyes out and just sobbing......yep...pretty much. which we've already discussed it happening...but decided not to talk about it anymore till we actually have to deal with it and have it happen.....which is tomorrow

the thing that hurts me most about anything.....is letting go of people.....i have such a hard time with that.....that is the one thing that bothers me and will make me cry before anything else

so that is all for now....cause now i've already got myself all worked up just anticipating it

i love you all

don't leave me

i seriously can't handle detaching myself from people.

everyone please pray for me. thank you.